watched the sunrise from my living room this morning. it’s so beautiful the picture doesn’t even do justice
Everybody has that one person they can’t lose. It could be your mother, your father, your bestfriend, your girlfriend, your boyfriend, whatever. But everybody has that one person that holds everything in their life up. And when it comes down to its your responsibility to keep that person around because when they leave your whole world can come crashing down in a heartbeat. We take people for granted a lot more in modern times than we should, we feel as if we can hide ourselves in and around social media and our lives will be fine. That’s not the case. Because in actuality its that special person and all your real-life relationships that keep you in check and make you who you are. So that person turns into your keystone, maybe not the most flashy or most admirable person in your life but definitely the most important. Don’t let that person go. Don’t take advantage of them, don’t piss them off, don’t upset them. Because you only realize how important they are once they leave and it’s damn near impossible to get them back. Your relationship will have its ups and downs just like any other but if you think about a person everyday, you’re doing yourself a disservice if your letting them go. I made that mistake. Out of some sort of twisted sense of righteousness. I took one of the downs a lot harder than I should have. I felt that because I got hurt I had the right to do the same. That’s not how it works. Nobody ever has that right, and now I understand. I took my keystone person and gave them a violent shove away. I hurt them probably a lot more than they hurt me. And now I’m realizing how much they really meant. I don’t have the guts to say this to them, but I’m sorry. I’m sorry I did what I did, I’m sorry things didn’t turn out the way we imagined they would, and I’m sorry that I wasn’t as good to you as you were to me. You deserve better- you know it and I know it as well. I’m sorry. I apologize for being stupid and immature and taking you for granted. You know who you are.